Dating with a sweet 45 yo woman

I haven't had real sex yet. I'm still very young, so it wouldn't be that strange. But I think it's about time. My friends are always talking about it, and I can't join in. That's why I'm looking for someone who wants to deflower me without it hurting. So I'm looking for someone with a lot of experience, preferably with deflowering girls.

I've been on the road trying to find the man of my dreams, going to singles parties, going out, and taking singles vacations. Not once have I met a nice man with whom I want to build a life, and I hope I'll have more success this way.

I spend almost every weekend with a friend because I don't have a good boyfriend. I'd love to meet a nice young man to have a relationship with. I think it would be wonderful to be with you every day.

As you get older, you naturally become more insecure. I certainly do. My husband often tells me he still finds me beautiful, but I think it's more of a sweetener, because he shows little interest in me otherwise. Or he's cheating, that's also a possibility. Well, I just want to find someone who truly finds me beautiful and can make me feel that way.