Love with a wild 18 yo girl

I never dared to commit to a man. But now I know why, and through a lot of therapy, I've figured out what the problem was.

When everything was settled with my divorce, I took a good look at myself. I looked back at my life and where I was at. I changed a few things after that: my lifestyle, a haircut, you know the drill. And now life is smiling on me again. Who wants to smile?

I haven't had real sex yet. I'm still very young, so it wouldn't be that strange. But I think it's about time. My friends are always talking about it, and I can't join in. That's why I'm looking for someone who wants to deflower me without it hurting. So I'm looking for someone with a lot of experience, preferably with deflowering girls.

I'm a bit shy, though you wouldn't expect it at first glance. However, once I trust you and you talk to me, you won't notice much of my shyness anymore.