Love with a beautiful 42 yo mother

Intimacy is what I'm looking for, because I'm really missing that in my relationship. Talking doesn't help; he's not much of a talker. So I'll look elsewhere. There are surely plenty of men who can offer me that, right?

Switching from a cohabiting relationship to a non-cohabiting one isn't really working either. The frustrations remain; I want to find someone who can help me move on and let go of the past.

I haven't had real sex yet. I'm still very young, so it wouldn't be that strange. But I think it's about time. My friends are always talking about it, and I can't join in. That's why I'm looking for someone who wants to deflower me without it hurting. So I'm looking for someone with a lot of experience, preferably with deflowering girls.

My ex is back with his first girlfriend, his true love, he recently told me. I'm feeling a bit down, and if you can help me get back on track, please let me know.