Fling with sensual a 54 yo woman

If I'm being completely honest, my boyfriend doesn't want to have sex with me anymore because I'm chubby. I'm always horny and can satisfy him. I even caught him cheating. Why do I still have to be the good housewife and not be allowed to have sex with another man?

Ever since I was young, I've known I wanted to do something with people. I now work in healthcare, and I love it. I once did some webcamming as a side hustle, which was really exciting! I get really excited when a man gets turned on by my body. How good is it when someone is pleasuring themselves and looking at you at the same time?

As you get older, you naturally become more insecure. I certainly do. My husband often tells me he still finds me beautiful, but I think it's more of a sweetener, because he shows little interest in me otherwise. Or he's cheating, that's also a possibility. Well, I just want to find someone who truly finds me beautiful and can make me feel that way.

I never dared to commit to a man. But now I know why, and through a lot of therapy, I've figured out what the problem was.